Everyday I sit here waiting
Everyday just seems so long
And now I’ve had enough of all the hating
Do we even care, it’s so unfair
Any day it’ll all be over
Everyday there’s nothing new
And now I just try to find some hope
To try and hold onto
But it starts again
It’ll never end

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What makes me happy?

i am happy when people around me are happy. i am happy when my mum calls or msg me even if its to nag me. i am happy when people remember little details of my life.  even if they make fun of it, it still makes me happy. i am happy when i get to eat my fav food. and my fav food is nothing posh or extravagant. i like cheap. simple. satisfying bites that reminds me of good times with my family and friends. sometimes… its not about the food… it’s about the memories we had while sharing the same food. i am happy when i get to eat ice cream. it reminds me of my music lessons. my mum used to reward me with ice cream after my music classes because she knows i had to practice hard for that two hour of torturous class every week. i enjoy the two hour class, but most importantly i enjoy the ice cream after tht. :D .  i am happy when i see animals. of any type. sometimes i wonder what it would be like if they could talk. i am happy when i get to know friends.. who made it far in life, especially when they started off with nothing. i am proud of their success. if i can.. id like to share their stories with the world. i am happy after a good movie. i feel like i’ve learnt something from it. i always feel happy when i get to learn something new.  i am happy when i find a good shopping deal. better still.. if i’ve made an impulsive purchase which i later on loved to bits. i am happy if my money is well spent on anything at all.  i am happy after my yoga classes. actually, i am happy everytime i sweat.  it just gives me a very satisfying feeling that i have accomplished something… speaking of accomplishment.. i am happy when i work hard on something/anything related to work, and i am appreciated for it after. it doesnt matter if it’s from the bos/fellow colleagues; just as long as my hard work is recognized… i will feel glad.. that i have at least contributed to the success of something/anything. i am happy when i travel. meet new people. talked with people who are passionate of what they do. i am happy when i get inspired. it doesnt happen always.. so when i am inspired.. i just feel happy. because i feel that there is purpose to life. and that it is never to later to achieve that purpose. i am happy when i hear my fav songs. even if it’s cheesy. or pop-ish. remember puff the magic dragon, catch a falling star and sing a song of sixpence? somehow those songs makes me happy for no particular reason. in fact… music always makes me feel alive.. and happy :D .  i am happy when people get my jokes. i make really really sucky jokes.  they’re really lame and .. well. not funny. but when people laugh…. at my sucky jokes………. it makes me really happy. :D   i am happy when i talk to people i like on im. every buzz makes me feel eager to reply on each response. i am happy when people call me to tell me good news. well.. maybe because i dont get that often.. but i am always happy when something good happens. :D it’s only natural to be happy anyways. =.= lol.  i can think of so many things that makes me happy…

but i guess i am happiest … when i get to meet you. to know more about you and being with you.

so tell me. what makes you happy?

-J