oh well, (: life goes on

yesterday i met a guy that changed a lot of perspective i have in a lot of things.

In short, he is kinda like Larry Paul in Ally McBeal. The kinda guy that you hate when you first see him. Then everything he says kinda makes you know that he is a male chauvinist and his ego is rocket high. But the next thing you know he makes sense more than you can make money. And after the meet, you just miss the feeling of having him around. Having him to argue with. Having his different and fresh ideas running in your head, drilling you with verbal diarrhea.

oh well. i like the feeling. but i don’t like the thinking that comes after that.

The thing about life is that it is actually so simple that people make it complicated just for the heck of it. I don’t fancy politicking, drama lamas, people squabbling among each other, backstabbing, lies, more lies, you get the gist of it. It just irks me even more. And the more i dislike it, the more it happens. The more tragedies unfold in front of my eyes. The more sad and depressed i feel. The more sighing, complaining and endless rant on everything that happens in such bad timing, and more often than not, i blame it on lack of luck. bleh.

i’ve got a new way of thinking about it all yesterday.

Whether it was maybe “thanks” to the guy or not, i have no inkling. but … i definitely felt better.

I have always hated the phrase “EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON”. Seriously. I don’t see the reason why people are blind. Or dies in a tragic accident. Or family killed in earthquakes. Or your day is so happy and fine and suddenly you just fall and break your leg or something like that. And if anyone say that line in front of me when such a thing happens, i will explode. Seriously, that is like the most inappropriate words to use when such a thing happen. Yes i believe in God and i know he have plans for everyone…

but does anyone at all deserves to die? I don’t think so. I think everyone deserves to live until 80 and have 40 grandchildren. I believe everyone should be married, one day. I KNOW there is someone out there for everyone and as lame as this may get… I TRUST that LOVE exist.

Sometimes being a girl makes it all easier, you know. As i would say girls have so much emotions in them that can make them feel things that men can not. I guess this is why men are from mars and woman from venus. or is it the other way round.i cant tell the difference. but anyhoo, opposites attract. And that’s the general rule that “SOMEONE” “says” it is. 

Rules. 

There are times i stare at the ceiling when i wake up in the morning and just continue staring at it for as long as i could. And i think to myself, who am i. what can i do. why am i here. what am i going to do today. gosh i think its time i wash my pillowcase…. and then i jump out of bed and go on with my daily routine. and the cycle goes on. day after another. question after questions.

yet i still don’t know the answer.

i guess i found what i was thinking all this while yesterday. Nope, not the answer. But i finally know that things, really do happen for a reason. And you will never know what the reason is, or why it happens, but there is a reasoning to everything. And knowing the reason… will not make your life any different than not knowing. so choose not to question, or explain, or even seek for the answer. Instead, let it come to you, and then… embrace it, with your arms wide open.

-J